A Little bit of This & That
I am surrounded by my belongings. They pile in my bedroom, in the laundry room and in the basement. There are two small bags before me. The task that lies ahead is more daunting than the finals I had.
My mom cried today. She says she is going to miss me and although it was difficult for her when I went to college that tomorrow will mark a different emotion. She will be proud that all my hard work has paid off and I will have an amazing summer living in the city. But she sees this not only as a test of how well I've done preparing myself, but also a test of how well she has done preparing me for life.
I've gone to summer camp and I've traveled alone. But I have always returned home in under 30 days. I go to college just 90 minutes from home. My sister is the independent one, not me. Although slightly embarrassing, here are two humorous facts about me.
1. I just changed a light bulb for the first time a couple of weeks ago.
2. I have only scheduled one doctor's appointment by myself in my life.
I depend on my family a lot. They depend on me. We've been through some rough times together. My parents are the first people I call when life throws me a curve ball. I take their words to heart and although I don't always agree with their opinions and decisions I do always respect them. They raised me well.
The love twins (all three of us) are separated. Jenna is in thumb of Wisconsin, Ali will be in the upper west side of NY and I will be in lower east side of NY. Jenna needs to relocate to a side of NY.
Michael Williams decided he's too cool to stick around for a goodbye tomorrow. Good thing we played rock, paper, scissors for two hours on Saturday night.
Burbs will be returning in June. That may require a special flight back to WI. By credit card is yelling at me for that comment.
Adam didn't say goodbye either. Instead he snored while Williams, Bruni and I had meaningful conversation. Truth be told I remember no conversation. Just fighting and normal Bruni bashing.
My next post will be from the east coast!
How Typical
It just occured to me that yesterday I tried to post a sentimental blog. I got a bunch of comments about yetis.
An Invitation
I think that come friday we will all be in need of a good ol' FAC.
In One Week
In one week Madison will be miles behind me and the east coast will be welcoming me. Someone else will be sleeping in my bedroom. Someone else will be feeding my fish. Someone else will be 'that girl' at brothers.
All of my friends are doing amazing things this summer. Traveling the world, working for non-profits, drinking on boats... I am sure that everyone feels that they have the best friends in the world, but mine are truly on a whole different level.
I had a lot of friends in high school, but never really felt like I belonged or fit in all that much. I have a lot of friends in college- and none of them really fit in either. They are all the color red against the white wall- ready to challenge and change whatever they are faced with.
And though we may all be in different parts of the country and other sides of the world I think we all sleep a little easier at night knowing that we have each other.
Two Serving of Easy-Mac kind of Day
With the anticipation of moving to New York in single digit days and everything else that I have to get done before I go, exams have been taking a back burner. My priorities are confused and I still couldn't tell you what deserves more time and energy.
I think I finally found a place to live- If all goes according to plan I will be residing in the east village. Just steps away from the subway that will whisk me to work everyday and four blocks from union square. Downside... I can not move in until June 1. I think I will take that over more pictures being sent to me of men in their underwear though.
So, not only do I have three more exams in the next two days- and yes I did have one this morning, I also need to pack everything up, confirm my sublet situation both here and in nyc, try to spend a few days with my family and say goodbye to all my graduating friends who will have already moved on to new places by the time I return.
I said my first goodbye to a friend that is moving out west to San Francisco June 14. It was more difficult than either of us has thought. Sometimes reality fails to set in until it is absolutely necessary. Maybe had I studied abroad this would be easier for me to comprehend, but I find it difficult to grasp saying goodbye to your dearest friends and not knowing when or where you shall meet again.
Just one more thing to think about in the scheme of life.
Is My Life on Fast-Forward?
If there was a pause button, I would have pushed it a few hours ago. My summer plans are now final and instead of feeling less stressed I feel MORE stressed.
I will be interning with Zurich in New York City from May 22 - August 22 or 25. Every day I am going to have to go in and work hard to prove to them that I am the best intern they have. No more easy care-free summer jobs... this is the real thing. Just a few steps up from the bait and liquor store of my high school days? I think so.
I have torn feelings about what I have decided to do. I am in love with the fact that I have been offered such a great opportunity and know that I will have an invaluable experience. It should also make finding a full-time job much easier in the fall. But at the same time I am envious of everyone doing great things abroad and working for non-profits whose missions they really believe in. Will I be putting in long hours and tons of hard work this summer? Yes. Will it be impacting people and changing lives? IDK... probably not. Does this make me a sell-out to Corporate America?
Regardless, this is what I am doing. I now need to find a place to live- Thankfully I have gotten back many responses to my inquiries, and find someone to sublet my room. I have one person interested so far... And who can forget those 4 cumulative finals hanging above my head?
It will all work out. And it will be great.
All The Cards Fell Right...
MOVING TO NEW YORK CITY FOR THE SUMMER!!!!!
